3

so who are you? what have you done? you make a new part of me arise. something i hardly knew and could bring to my demise. you bring misconceptions to mind and burn a new meaning into my brain. i practically feel completely and obliviously insane. i want that, then i suddenly want this. when i'm with you i feel complete bliss. when i'm with him i feel complication that i quickly dismiss. what's so great about you anyways? i feel like i'm in a complete daze. maybe i'm stuck in a summer haze. either way, you catch my eye and my soul. i don't think i can unravel my true self yet, for i don't know what it reveals. who actually knows what i feel? she does, and she's all i need. looks like i'm trapped inside a triangle of three.

september

it seems to be over much too soon. it seems like a week ago we were together in that room. it seems like a day ago she was here and everything was perfectly charming and full of excitement. it seems like a minute ago i was dipping my feet in the kelp-filled water of the Pacific Ocean and drowning myself in foreign liquids. it seems like one second ago i was walking out the door of the jail i'm captivated in year-round. but tomorrow starts a new year. i will be put in jail once again, smirking at old faces, smiling at new faces, and looking away from certain ones i no longer want contact with. but it all seems so surreal. like my summer bliss was a dream. it was all too good to be over now or to even be real. i got everything i wanted this summer, except for one thing. but now that the new year comes and the scent of Autumn starts to fill my nostrils, i'm glad to get over that one little glitch. i'm happy to see that certain things that my brain used to wrap itself around happen to not make any matter in my life anymore. all my brain is wrapped around now is what awaits me in my future. and i love this scent i breathe in today. because it is a new month, a new season, a new September, and a new me.