what once was, will be

it's been a while
an immense while
it's almost like my thoughts were put on hold
along with my life and everything in it
bringing me back to august of two thousand nine, when our world began to deteriorate
first, the keys i play everyday-gone
the keys i used to unlock home-gone
suddenly, my collection of four long and amazing years added up-gone

it was home
it was family
it was love
it was comfort
it was everything to me
and it had to all be taken away

but we all start among a new path
it may take a while to pursue the path or even create the path
yet the outcome is whatever we can make of it

i can't fathom how things should be
all i think of is how they could be, how i want them to be
i am determined to make these things appear how i imagine them

time ticks too fast sometimes
making it impossible to catch every step
but each step i do end up taking should be breathed in like my favorite scent

the outcome is bright and vivid
it may be difficult, but not a challenge i'm not willing to take on

it will be home
it will be family
it will be love
it will be comfort
it will be everything to me
once again

waiting

it seems like everything in my world is all about waiting

time consumes me and it won't set me free

it seems like all along everyone has just been faking

never can my waiting help me to see

the eyes that watch over in a blazing stare

captivate my premature ability to see what's right ahead

i can no longer tell if you're here or there

after all has been done, nothing more is said

so please help me out, explain the clock

the days are getting shorter as we await

the big hand sings tick and the little hand tock

the ultimatum is sure to come too late