why am i longing for this so much?
is it because i've never actually had it?
is it just because it's "that time of year"?
because everytime i actually put my energy towards something
i feel like i end up screwing it up for myself
i just want my own love story
one that has it's ups and downs
but still actually goes somewhere
i want someone that makes me see how beautiful i am
someone that i can spend tons of time with
but even when we're apart for 5 minutes,
i can't wait to see them again
someone that makes me feel like i couldn't live without them
someone that i get in arguments over stupid things with
i want the good and the bad
i just want someone to love and someone to love me
equally
where everything feels so different
and i can't even think of how i felt before being with them
is that too much to ask?
because i'm getting so impatient
opportunities present themselves, but never follow through
i've held this in for so long
i just had to rant
