dream vs reality

if this is reality then why does it feel so fake? i can see myself about to make some type of mistake, but i'm just going to say it like it is: i don't care. and it feels pretty great. i look off into the distance behind my closed lids as my mind plays tricks and i make decisions in my fantasies. i sit abandoned in the sauna-esque room and think. think way too much for a normal brain. what am i? who am i? what's going on? where are you? where were you when i needed you? these are the only thoughts, along with a consequential side of you and i in our past. our kisses, our hugs, our stupid laughs and tricks. they felt so good then. i wish they could feel that way again. this ramble is so much of my mind, but no where near all of it. words can never express all of my thoughts. i play out an unrealistic picture in my head but somehow, because it's thought about so much, it does seem real. at least for a moment. and i want to live in that moment forever. 

"i need you"

How many days will it take for you
To make up your mind and actually come through
Like a star waiting to be as big as the moon
I know I won't see it anyday soon
Going through obstacles like a soldier in war
How long can he shoot till he finally scores
Make it or break it, the sun will still shine
Sometimes all a person needs is time
The clock keep ticking and the hands still move
Please just tell me: "I need you."

the leopard and the antelope

 its spots play out in an organized pattern across its body. it moves at such a pace that the spots become a blur of brown and black. the antelope hides and disguises itself so that it isn't an easy catch, for if it was its life would soon be taken. the leopard waits, blending in ever so perfectly with the shrubs around him, until the antelope feels safe enough to exit its hiding spot. she does. and when the leopard captures her beautiful eyes blinded by fear, his hunger gets stronger. it chases, it attacks, it makes its precise yet immense moves towards the antelope. the leopard halts, it devours, and it bolts away. the leopards spots become a blur once more as he explodes into the distance at a faster pace, never being seen again. and the antelope is left a corpse on the dry ground to watch from the heavens, and never get her way again.