him

funny how no one seems to compare
it sounds so general, but it's true
i'll be so happy with someone else, yet you're still always there
stuck in the back of my mind
sometimes in the front
but more forward than behind

sure, i've messed up before
but honestly, who hasn't?
people throw around the word love
but i sure don't
and i truly believe you're the only boy i've ever actually loved
though i may have never thrown it around casually
may have never actually said it
it's how i felt
hell, maybe it's still how i feel

i have no idea
but you've always had this horrible power
to confuse the shit out of me
and to make me hate you
but make me see you're the best i've ever had
all at the same time

without even making a single effort to do so